07 June 2005

Woke up early in the morning just to go to work. Taking my own sweet time to bath and dress up - didn't realise that i am going to be late for work .. hehehe .. Called someone and sms her the whole day. Well she mentioned that she miss my voice. Wondering whether she misses me or not. Althought we are just friends .. i have to let it be the way she wants. I do really want more of friendship but somehow time takes place. I'll wait .. it's ok .. it's worth it =)

Plan with her for tomorrow's movie. Going breakfast .. then she'll have her exam .. then starbucks in the afternoon. Dinner together and movie "Madagascar" =) So nice being with her the almost the day. Should had appreciate long time ago. Wasted =(

About starbucks, she fear i might see someone that i don't like to see. But somehow .. i can't go avoiding things .. i have to face it althought i'm the one who cause all the problems. Anyway, what's over is over and i had no more feelings for her even a lil. What i had is just worrying bout her as a friend. Hurting someone and you just being stupid? I'm not that kind. Just wants her to quit smoking .. but somehow if she doesn't wanna listen, then too bad i can't help out any. As a friend to help ..

Tomorrow .. someone special of mine gonna have her exam at 11 am. Wish her all the best of luck. Hope she manage to pass the exam or else i'll feel guilty. Broke up with her when she's preparing for the exam. I understand how she feels. Even if me i won't study for my exam and feel sad and moody. Feel so sorry bout myself the way i treated her. Why me? Why i can do this shit? Really wish i can turn back the time and appreciate every single thing. No point grumbling about it right now. Waiting for the right time and wanna work things out. Not gonna hurt her anymore i promise myself and to you all people that read my blog. Wanna prove to the world that i really love her so much and support me. I'm sincere and regret of what i've done and it's time to mend her broken heart. Can't bear to see that she's hurt again.

Good luck to you darling - All the Best - Love you always 5070 =)

This is what she posted =)

.::I hate::.

I hate the way u look into my eyes,
I hate the way u tell me that u love me
I hate the way you make me feel
So comfy but insecure...

I hate the way you hug me,
as I will love u deeper..
I hate it when u kiss me,
As I would trust you more..

I hate it when you hold my hand,
As I don't wish to let u go anymore
I hate your sweet spoken word,
As you can make me cry..

I hate the way you treated me
and most importantly
I hate myself for loving you.