I think it's best for you and me

Dear Fiona..

I'm really sorry for the break up as i think it's best for me and you. Actually i cannot accept the fact that you're not 100% into the relationship as you've warned me 5 months back and .. the changes in you .. i tried to be patient of all times and all your complainings.. i didn't blame you for that which also not the reason for the break up.

It's unfair for u as in i couldn't spend time with you as my working hours is fully loaded and i got not enough sleep as i turns moody when u try to wake me up. (I appreciate and i'm sorry as i scold u). I know it makes you suffer and me too cause i feel guilty after scolding you.. Couldn't spend time with you is another major problem. Sorry bout that as my carrier comes first .. Other working places? Neah .. i'll still stick to The Friends Cafe. Not talking bout the income .. not talking bout the enviroment .. but the people around me .. and most important of all .. i'm happy. It pressures me when u bring up the topic asking me to change job for a better future .. i know it's for my own good but somehow .. i think The Friends cafe is my future. Other places is just a stealing experience.

I prefer meeting up than talking on the phone. 1st .. you don't pay for the bill .. u won't know the damage. Althought i didn't pay for it but i somehow feel the damage when i got scolded. I never blame you for that. 2nd .. you wanna talk on the phone when i'm busy and u got frustrated and hang up on me which i don't really like it .. 3rd .. We quarrel on the phone which makes me don't feel like calling you .. work = +pressure and calling you +++pressure .. sorry i know it will hurt yr feelings .. I think in relationship .. both party needs to give and take ... and i can see that i give all the time .. this is what i feel ok? don't say that i accused you or anything as i didn't blame u ..

I know i hurt your feelings a lot where u don't wanna have a friendship with me after the break up. I understand that .. but no matter what happens .. be strong .. and i'm always by your side even though u don't want me too .. Take care .. and .. I'm sorry for the rest of my life ..

Lots of love..
MistaBarista