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I couldn't sleep after i post the recent message. I cried and cried .. shouting with my pillows blocking my face. Don't wanna let my family members know what am i .. how am i .. freaking emo ..

Wipe my tears .. wash my face .. headed to cafe .. got myself a bottle of Hei .. Bloated .. why am i depressed? Why am i sad? Why i am like this which i am not like this? I asked GOD .. there's no answer.

She called .. told her everything what i've wrote in blog. I almost cried when i talk to her. Tomorrow .. another day to go over with .. Fcuking week i had.

I hate myself .. I cannot forgive myself of what i've done. Even if everybody in this world forgive me .. i can't forgive myself .. =( .. God Damn Me !!!

No matter what happens to me, i still love you darling .. Muacks =*

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Am I sad ?

Woke up in the morning for work. Left work about 6++ pm to attend my friend's wedding dinner. She also had dinner - her cousin's wedding dinner.

Finish dinner, i'm back home straight. But she's going to hang out at Pure with her cousins. I know i trust her. But why? Why am i feeling uneasy? Because of the place? The people around there? She drinks or not? She got drunk? She knows that i don't like her to be there unless i'm around. But i cannot stop her cause we are just friends. I had to learn to give her some space with her friends or her cousins. I can't be selfish and let her stay home where she actually can enjoy herself but somehow i feel uneasy. Why? =(

Love you darling .. muacks - Don't drink so much and drink more water

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